haix..before i start my real entry, i must say something. -->>some ppl are just soooo persistent and irritating! they just can't take a bloody hint. If i dun reply ur messages, just take it as i dun want to. Dun pretend like i care, cos i dun't, i dun wanna have anything to do with you. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
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ok..it was art mid years today. i spent the whole weekend just doing prep work and even so, i didn't finish it by sunday night even, so i had to complete it in school. i hate me final piece la..so crappy can! s ugly! so slipshot! very very unlike me. i'm a perfectionist i admit. i'd like to think that everything i do is perfect, but this art piece definitely was one of my crappiest la, then agai, most of the pieces i do during exams are crappy. sighx...why o why? i realised something, i have shit for talent la! i have such HIGH^ expectations for myself, and when i just can't reach all those goals that i make fer yself, i get so DOWN and doscouraged. haix..i need therapy.
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so at least the lao-ren wasn't such a pain today as i expected him to be, in fact he was rather mild today, except for the part when he was standing over my shoulder watching me work. like please lo...does he understand the meaning of the word "SPACE"!!! ya..so like i said, i'm not expecting anything much for art this time.
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essy wessy takes her art paper tomorroe! cheers to essy! and lotsa luck to help her concentrate while the lao-ren sits in front of her, shadowing. he's irritating just becos he's lao-ren liao.
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so what else happened today. O YEaH!!! while ah gang was like sitting around one pathetic table rushing prep work, conversation of all our crushes of course came up la..teehee...chix and her G.H. , bliss and her hamzah, me and my - - *cough cough - - u noe who. HEEEHEEEE!!! and like me and chix, our crushes always have something in common laaa..like her terence, play saxophone in band just like *him**, then both log head, then one live in sirat road, the other live in syrup road. whahaha..i mean what are the odds of that right. haha..me and chix have same taste in guys i guess, at least same taste in their backgrounds. haha..then now her G.H. in the same school same band as *him**. ahaha...so yeah..anyway..we were talking bout them and their band and the syf how they got silver and they were all soo freagin sad. then she say G.H. said that when they went to dinner after the sad news, that they all started crying...and i mean EVERYONE!!! OmGosh righttt...when i heard that, somehow i got sooo sad too. i mean imagining *him** crying is just like so heartbreaking for me. i noe it's weird, cos i hardly noe the guy, but somehow, i felt so sad for him. sighx..i kinda now what it feels like - - the dissapointment, the loss. sighx..feel so sad now ust thinking bout it. sighx..well..
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so about that yeah..i added him to msn rite...and he added me back already. his nick is so cool, it has like 3 languages in it, chinese, jap and dunno what la..sooo kewl rite. haha..yeah...haven't got the courage to talk to him yet...but i'll find my way soon. =))
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