at this moment - - 6:35 p.m. on tuesday, the 17th of may, mid yeaexams are over, i just came back from ah gang outing [finally!], and mr quek is online NOW!!! and i'm just scared to talk to him la..god help me please!!! everytime he goes offline, i feel like shit, and i think that next time he comes online i'll DEFINITELY talk to him, but do i ever? NO!!! sighx..something HAs to be done. i'm also listening to tim mcgraw's song - - live like u were dying, but it's ending already...let's see what's the next song on my playlist. lalalalalalalalaaaaa
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ah...the next song is "mr lonely", so that stupid mouse voice is singing now. ok ok ...the truth is, i'm just stalling la...i really have nothing else to do but talk to *him**, but i'm soooo freagin scared of rejection la. what if he thinks i'm siao, will he feel flattered that i like him or will he feel disgusted<<- - -how i that possible???? he can't possibly feel disgusted rite? i mean, i'm not that unfortunate looking am i? ppl always reassure me that i'm not that sad looking, but i dunno, i have absolutely no ego or self confidence what so ever, so i guess that affects the way i look to others rite. sighx.
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ok...i''m still stalling. no one is online to counsel me...sighx..tomorroe we're getting back english and chinese exam papers believe it or not. the teachers purposely wanna mark our sheets extra quick just to make us miserable. dun even wanna give us one day's rest. shit them.
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'lonely' song just ended...now it's 'i made it through the rain' by barry manilow.
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so yeah-->friday is walk-a-jog yeah...and can u believe that me and belize actually made it into top hundred in our level, so we're like in the competing section!!! that totally sucks!!! i mean how is it possible that we can be top hundred??? WE WALKED FOR nut'S SAKE!!! sheesh..the school is just so desperate that PLites be involved in school activities that they make it compulsory for everyone to go. probably cause the last walk-a-jog only 10 ppl showed up [assumption].
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alrite...the funniest thing is [not that it's really funny], that it's at east coast park! and if u noe me, u'd noe what i'm toking about, cos east coast park is like near to a certain school, actually 2 certain schools, one i really dun't mind a bit, the other, well let's just say - - - - - >> *puke sounds** yes...it's sickening. sighx..but that's just me. i'm easily sickened.
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HE"S STILL ONLINE U NOE!!!! AND I CAN"T DO NUTS ABOUT IT!!!! HELP ME!!!!!!
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i can't smile without you by barry manilow playing now.
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